i’m about 103 right now.
2 weeks ago i was 110.

i ate half a peach. purged it.
told myself not to eat, then ate a saltine.
bent over immediately and purged.

then an egg souffle (140 cal). purged less than half.
it just wouldn’t come up.
swore at myself all the while.
why the fuck did i eat that?

but i wasn’t done.
a couple spoonfuls of peanut butter.
purged as much of it as i could.
but it’s fucking impossible to purge peanut butter.
sticks.

what the fuck am i doing?
i need to stop eating.
it’s impossible to eat without purging.

don’t eat.